Lately, I feel like I am running on
fumes. I am on empty; my strength odometer is on zero right now.
Sometimes I wonder if the suffering
will ever end. I have defeated every obstacle that has crossed my path, but I
am tired. After each battle that I have won, there was another one waiting
around the corner.
They say that God gives the toughest
battles to the stronger soldiers, but God, you must have a lot of faith in me
because sometimes I don’t even know how to keep going. Sometimes I just want to
give up and let life have its way with me and destroy me.
I am not asking you to make my
trials go away, because I know that my trials make me more resilient. I am not
asking you to make the pain go away, because I know pain makes me stronger. I
am not asking you to make life easier, because I know that the harder the
battle, the sweeter the victory. Instead, I simply ask you to give me strength
because I feel weak—I am exhausted, and I’m not sure how much more I can take.
Some days I feel like I just can’t
go on. Everything feels like too much for me right now, and I know that I don’t
have the strength to get through this on my own. There is only darkness inside
my brain and pain flowing through my veins.
There are things happening around me
right now that I do not understand. Some of these things make me feel helpless
and lost. I am in crisis and need a supporting hand to keep me from sinking
further in the quicksand.
Dear God, I know that you are working on me to become the man
that I am meant to be, but I ask you to please give strength on the
days I feel like I can’t go on anymore.
I know that I can come to you and
that you will hear me out. I know that it is not your intent to bring me to
this point just to leave me in the eye of the storm alone. Please shelter my
mind from the storms that roam inside.
My heart is troubled, but I am fully
trusting you to give me the strength that I need for the days ahead.
God, I come to you for
strength—strength for my body to keep pushing, strength for my mind to keep
going, and strength for my soul to keep living. I need your strength to stand
strong in the midst of situations that require much of me.
God, I come to you for help—the help
that I need to face every adversity that crosses my path.
God, please give me the strength
that I need today so I can see another tomorrow
By Adabara Abduljelil